Being alone can sometimes be really nice. No one to bug you when you’re netflix binging or judge your personal hygiene or hog your snacks.
I like being alone now and then. Especially when I’ve had a rough work week and I just need quiet.
Yes, being alone can sometimes be nice.
Being lonely, however… is never nice.
That pit in your stomach. That ache in your heart. The need to connect with someone right at that moment. Feeling hopeless and trapped because there doesn’t seem to be a way out of it.
When depression is piled on top of that it feels like a whole other playing field. You start to wonder if you’re lonely because no one cares to be around you. As if they have people more important than you to spend time with right now. That you deserve to be alone. That if anyone talks to you it’s out of pity. That you shouldn’t even try to ease your loneliness. That you should sit with it and let it hurt you like you deserve to be hurt.
Depression is this little bug. Just waiting for you to leave yourself exposed so that it can bite the shit out of you.
All it takes is one negative thought and it just latches on to you.
And when something like that happens it’s not like you can just text someone you know and say, “hey, I feel really lonely right now. I’d like someone to talk to.”
Oh wait a second. You can.
There’s no reason not to. I think the reason we don’t is because it’s really hard to admit that you feel things in general. Chances are pretty much everyone around you has felt lonely before.
I know I have.
I’ve felt a lot of things. Depressed, scared, angry, frustrated, embarrassed, bored, sad, manic… the list goes on and on.
But amongst all the negative feelings, loneliness? Oof, that one feels the worst.
If you feel like you don’t have anyone to turn to, think again.
Because now you have me.
Let’s be lonely together. We all know what it’s like to feel that way. We can all have each other’s backs.
We are stronger in numbers. Let’s use every day as a new opportunity to squash depression like the little bug that it is. After all, there’s no cure yet, so we must battle and conquer it daily.
This morning I wrote a blog post, took my medication, and listened to happy music. I feel good. I kicked depression’s ass so far today. But the day is still going. Having support will make it that much easier to keep winning.
It’s like all the people you love cheering you on from the stands. We can all be that for each other.
Don’t let your pride make you suffer. No one should have to feel lonely and depressed alone.
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